Grad doesn't always mean glad

In life sometimes you have to do what you have to do. But I'm honestly disappointed at having to accept a job that I didn't want. Unfortunately it's what all college grads are going through right now, not just me, so I'm not trying to sound like I'm the only one:-). The thing is, I'm on the verge of getting married, and I'm starting to worry I won't have a good, stable career to start that life. I don't care about how much I make, I just want to make enough to have a good life. Maybe even save a little. And more importantly than that, I want a career that I LOVE! That's what I worked so hard for afterall. With the job I just accepted I'm going back to living paycheck to paycheck and I hate the work. It's just really hard not to be disappointed about that.

Job hunting

Well, I decided not to take the opportunity I was offered. It was a great job offer, and I would have loved, loved, LOVED the work. However, it didn't pay enough to afford all my bills, which is the only reason I didn't take it. Don't get me wrong, I stand by my statement that the job is more important than the pay, but I have to make enough to pay my bills, too.

As for Robert, he's found a great job opportunity that will really take care of him. I would say more on here, but based on the harassment we've been receiving, I'm going to leave out the job name and where it is. You can always get in contact with me if you want to know :-).

So the job hunt continues. I'm determined to find a position I love. . . at least, most days if not all;). I really haven't been unemployed that long anyway. Just since April. But finding the right job means a lot to me and hopefully, I'll find it soon.

A day in the life. . .

Let me begin with a little mush and say, I love seeing my engagement ring on my finger. I love being reminded that Robert will be my husband and that this is officialy the best period of my life yet(except being unemployed). I'm so happy everyday knowing that we're engaged, and that in almost no time at all, we'll be married. While I'm beyond excited to marry Robert, you can bet I'll take these next eight months and enjoy every part of being engaged. This time will rush by, and I want to embrace this feeling for as long as it's here. I can't believe that after all of my bad relationships, someone like Robert loves me and wants to spend his life with me. It doesn't get much better than that.

But during this period of anticipation and excitement, I have a lot of big decisions to make. Obviously graduating and getting married means I've already entered the world of adulthood, but the decisions I need to make are the kind of decisions that make me feel like I'm too young to make big decisions. I've made life changing moves before, but regardless, this is a tough one and I don't know what direction to take.

I've always said, the career means more than how much I get paid. I stand by this statement, even now. But I've realized what also matters is being able to afford to live. I'm getting married, and as much as I love my family, I don't want to get married and live at home. I want our own place- our little love nest (yeah I said it).

Now I have a real decision to make. Take an opportunity which has been presented to me here or move three hours away. Is it worth staying here or is there more for me three hours from here? I have no idea how to decide.