Thursday, October 14, 2010

You can't always get what you want. . .

When you're in college all you can think about is getting out. You count down the days until graduation and the time when your life "begins." However, with the economy the way it is, there's absolutely nothing exciting about graduation. Over the past year, I've gone through several different positions (freelancing, sales, and copywriting) and I'm still struggling to find the right job. I'm not sure whether it's me- if i just haven't found the right passion since school - or whether it's the jobs, but I just can't find the right career.
Now, more than anything, I'm wishing I was back in school. It's the only place I've felt as though I belong and that I excel at my work. I made straight A's and I was always so excited to go to class. Yeah I was stressed and there were nights I was scared I wouldn't get everything done, but somehow, I always did and it felt incredible! I wanted to work hard because I knew I was good at it and I loved getting good grades.
I'm scared I may never get that passion and determination back; that i'll never feel like i'm good at what I do again. Am I just incapable of growing up or is it that hard to find the right career?