The buzz of anticipation and hope

The hardest part about job hunting is finding a position that you would love to have. I know, you're thinking to yourselves, why is that the hardest part? However, it's at that moment that you get so eager to apply and so anxious for the position, that your fingers slip around the keyboard and your heart starts pounding the moment you click the submit button. It's not so much that you're nervous, but that you are so excited about the position you can hardly wait to apply . . at least, that is what it's like for me. I just submitted an application for a job that I would love to have! I've barely just applied and already the buzz of anticipation and hope is keeping me hopping around the room like a child before Christmas day. So I return to my first statement, the hardest part about job hunting is finding a job you really want, because the moment you hit submit you're giving so much hope and anticipation into a position you may not get. Granted, if the position doesn't work out, there will be others and I have to remain positive that there WILL be others. Better yet, if I don't get the position, that means it just wasn't "the one." But it's hard to willingly set yourself up for possible rejections over and over again. In-fact, it's kinda like dating, you kiss frog after frog until finally one turns into a prince. So I suppose if I look at job hunting the same way, I can remain positive. Afterall, I found Robert, which only means eventually I have to find my charming career too. . . right?

Feeling like myself again

I'm finally researching what it will take for me to get back into grad school. It's funny because up until this point I haven't felt like myself. The moment that returning to school came back into the horizon, I'm feeling more like the person I know I am. What is good about that is now I know that I'm heading in the right direction career wise. Before when I'd choose a new job it just never felt right. If I wasn't stressed, I found myself struggling to want to go to work. But with school I'm itching to go back- in-fact, I'm already trying to work on a paper that I hope to turn into a thesis when the time comes. The only bad side is, I'm terrified I'll start researching grad school and realize it's not something I can afford to do. I'm counting on financial aid and scholarship options, but from my understanding thats much harder for grad students. Then there's the GRE. . . and all I can say about that is I'm an English major for a reason. The math just might kick my behind. Why they have to test you so many times before you can go to school is beyond me anyways. But I'm hopeful this is the start of my return to school. I am beyond ready!