Feeling like myself again

I'm finally researching what it will take for me to get back into grad school. It's funny because up until this point I haven't felt like myself. The moment that returning to school came back into the horizon, I'm feeling more like the person I know I am. What is good about that is now I know that I'm heading in the right direction career wise. Before when I'd choose a new job it just never felt right. If I wasn't stressed, I found myself struggling to want to go to work. But with school I'm itching to go back- in-fact, I'm already trying to work on a paper that I hope to turn into a thesis when the time comes. The only bad side is, I'm terrified I'll start researching grad school and realize it's not something I can afford to do. I'm counting on financial aid and scholarship options, but from my understanding thats much harder for grad students. Then there's the GRE. . . and all I can say about that is I'm an English major for a reason. The math just might kick my behind. Why they have to test you so many times before you can go to school is beyond me anyways. But I'm hopeful this is the start of my return to school. I am beyond ready!